As the holidays approach, it seems so many people are touched with the Spirit of Christmas. I pray so hard to be touched by that Spirit, but all I feel is aloneness and pain...

I am alone. I am a compassionate person with a giving heart. As a dedicated Christian and a Certified professional food manager, I spend my life looking for ways to serve God by serving others. God gave me so many inborn qualities. But why? I can no longer keep putting the energy it takes into maintaining my "inner Spirit". It seems that most of my 45 years has been spent in picking up the pieces of the ongoing devastations that have created my "life". A life I have tried to LIVE. A life I have tried to cherish and prosper within. A life that once had beliefs, & hopes. & goals...
     But the fact remains. I am alone. I have no family or friends. None of the local community outreach s have no Angel trees for people like me I constantly struggle to make ends meet on my $614.00 monthly disability. I go without the basics very often. My light bulbs get unscrewed, my hot water is turned off, and my day old bread from the soup kitchen is starting to mold...

I am still dreaming of a Thanksgiving dinner. I went to the extreme of just trying to obtain the turkey carcass's from local churches, but everybody seemed to "dedicated " to their outreach cause verses helping me... Maybe next year...I'll have a dinner just like the world has...I always crave a holiday feast, it does not go away.  

Although I try not to focus on materialistic or negative things, I can't help but feel the pain that does not go away as the world celebrates the holidays. IT HAS BEEN YEARS SINCE I HAVE GOTTON SO MUCH AS A CHRISTMAS CARD. I hate to admit it, but it hurts...

The month of December, to me, is just a never ending assault on my Spirit. One continues lie. A never ending fantasy of family, friends, food, & giving...When year after year, I always wind up sitting alone, usually outside in the cold, watching families as they gather into churches or resturants, I wonder what that feeling of "Christmas spirit and cheer" must be like. But no one ever sees me. I am invisible to the world. I am silent in my torments. I am broken within. Shattered pieces of a lost soul. A masterpiece with no canvas...
 
I know God is with me. I know the promises of the Bible. But as a human being living in an endless circle I pray and I beg for the forgiveness it must take for me to "get a life"...For God To direct me to a key to the source...

      Please pass this message onto to anyone who might send me a card. I would be so grateful. I know so many people take for granted all the holiday foods and special meals shared with family and friends. I would give anything for just the bottom of the pot scraps of special holiday foods...
 
 
Please pass this message onto to anyone that might care just a little....
                                                        Thank You and God Bless You
 
Elisabeth Canady    
4300   18th  St   W   #  102  B
Bradenton, Fl  34205

godschef@hotmail.com

im so saad that you feal this way.go in on my web page.www.home.no/mission4jesus.no/ hope you kan get something out of it.i want you to remember that if the wold around you seems to be against you,or not cear about yoou.you have one who always care..all the time.when i was pregnant with my first baby,that we was wanting so much..it was born dead.god do not have anything to do with death ...i love god the same much !the devil is a lier,and he is telling us stuff that we dont have to belive.he wants us to feel sorry for us self.god knows you and he see the pain you have inside you...if you are bitter to God ,you must pray for forgivness.if you are bitter at the church,the people aroun you..pray for forgivness.if everything is fine...then you are blessed. read deuteronomy 28:1-14. bless you!

HOW ARE FEELING?HOPE THAT EVERYTHING IS OK WITH YOU BLESS YOU:GOD CARES ABOUT YOU.ALWAYS.

AWWWWWWWWWW , WOW IS THAT A REAL POST? HEARTBREAKING. CAN SOMEONE REALLY BE THAT LONELY? IF SO, I JUST WANT YO TO KNOW! YOU'RE NOT ALONE! NO!!!!!!!!!!! FOR ALL THAT YOU GIVE TO THE LIFE OF OTHER'S COMES BACK INTO OUR OWN!

YOU'RE SPECIAL, MABE PLACED ABOVE THE REST
WITH YOUR GOLDEN HEART AND BEAUTY AND CHARM!

DON'T YOU FEEL DOWN. YOU COUNT! JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE HERE!

CHIN UP! HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER!

LOTS OF LOVE ANF HUGZ!

DO YOU LIKE AMY GRANT? IS THAT WHY YOU CAME ON THIS POST? SHE IS REALLY COOL !

WOW I LOVE HER SONGS.. ALL OF THEM
IT BROKE MY HEART WHEN SHE DIVORCED.
KINDA THREW ME OFF. BUTTTTTTTT YOU SEE?
THAT IS WHY WE SHOULD NOT LOOK AT OTHER'S
OR WE MIGHT FALL... LET US KEEP OUR FOCUS ON GOD AND GOD ONLY! LET US REJOICE WITH OUR BTOHRE'S AND SISTERS.....AND NEVER JUDGE!

WOW I WROTE A LOT. LOL I TALK TOO MUCH
SO? LOL IT'S A POST BOARD!

AMY GRANT! YOU'RE SO AWESOME MY SISTER!
AND YOU MARRIED VINCE GILL! (SH'S GONE COUNTRY!) LOL JK

HOPE YOU GET THIS POST. BE COOL LIKE NICOLE! SHE POSTS ON HER BOARD!

OKAY WOW GOTTA GO!

Yooooooooooo HOoooooooooooooooo

Sweet Elisabeth where did you go?
You stayed on my mind
So I just had to come back and look for you!
Come back, come back!

Honey I just want to tell you,
Jesus loves you!
His love is so genuine and real!
Take a stand in Christ!
Don't let the enemy "THE WORLD"
Dictate what you should feel
Or what is real!
Draw that Line and tell the enemy to get behind!
You knw JC don't you?
He may not always give us what we want
BUT he'll always give us what we need!
He'll meet your needs YES
Praise God he will!
So count your blessing's my sister in Christ!
Know their are powers that surround and protect you
God's angels! They are real!
And when thee enemy comes a knockin
You rebuke him an let God take over!
Keep listening to postive music
Read God's word.
For what goes into our minds
Comes out in our lives!

Elisabeth Wherever you are!
I'm praying for you!
You can do this.

WE ARE NOT ALONE!

WOW and Amen LORD you're love is a great thing!

Elisabeth I hope you're okay.

Iknow your holidays were difficult and I am so sorry. BUT know what? God doesn't say we have to celebrate Christmas, or Thanksgiving.

OR DOES IT?

Nope. I see no mention of it.
It's mans tradition. It can be cool and fun
It can be beautiful with the only thought in mind is that Jesus was born to us on that day

However, it can be very deprssing for a lot of people. REALLY it can. Jmmmmmmmm thinking something needs to be done.

WOW okay See ya

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm looking for clues at the scene of the crime............lisbeth ya ever coming back?

how are you.?jeusu loves you and he cares for you.stay with him..he WILL help you. please heve a look at my web page..
home.no/mission4jesus/ Gods protection on your life...

i know is really borring?

Elizabeth, check my response under Mark Schultz.

may be if you listen to amy grant you won't feel that way for the holidays.