i know what u mean about crying aj. i rarely do it and when i do if i'm not alone i have to trust the ppl i'm around. hope that makes sense. i trained myself not to cry too. but that doesn't mean i don't feel it inside.

at one point not to long ago i couldn't even feel it...but then i couldn't feel anything...i was completely numb...thats just simply how i wanted to be...but then i pushed all my friends away...and i don't want to be completely alone ever again...it's scary when your alone...and i know i'm never truly alone...but at that time i had even pushed god away....

well at least your reaching your hand out now and we can reach back!!

You know AJ, you sound so much like me...hang in there k? I know how you feel, and you will get through this...I'm praying for you.

thanks girl...

u can make it through this aj. not by yourself though with god's help. we're praying for ya!!

Just to let everyone know...i'm doing quite well...i've still got some stuff to deal with...but i'm doing pretty good

glad to hear it aj!! we're still praying though!!